Thank You For Making Me A Dad: Letter To Shawn’s Two Sons
Rewind to about a decade ago, and I may have told you I could wait another decade to have kids. Truth is I was scared. I didn’t have much time to be, because by the end of 2018 I would be a father twice over. Thank you for making me a dad, Colin and Mario.
I never felt quite ready to be a parent. It’s crazy, right?! You’ve got this little indefensible human that you bring into this often crazy world. Mentally, I feel like I never climbed out of 15 years old. Miscarriages and disappointments got in the way, but in late November 2016, an emergency c-section unveiled the most precious little boy.
Colin Eric (his first name is his mom’s late father’s middle name, and his middle name is my late brother’s first name) was there. Crying, messy, tiny and adorable. I couldn’t believe we just brought life into the world. I waited until mom could touch you skin to skin (cheek to cheek) first before I got my first touch.
You looked at me, held my finger, and I was done for.
Two years later, say hello to Mario Domenic. While I was nervous about having a second, time has absolutely proven it was the right move. Mario, you are a hilarious light who is fiery, competitive and fun as can be.
Admittedly I don’t know if I am the best baby dad. I loved both of you when they were tiny, but now that we can talk, hang out and have fun together, this is the peak!
There have been so many adventures over the years. From sleeping on Main Street Disneyland to road trips to the Redwoods, trips to Boston, Legoland and more. But the trips haven’t mattered… it’s been watching the both of you on this trip of life that has been the most fulfilling.
Seeing both of my boys step out and be better versions of me (as I tried to be a better version of my dad, and on and on). Seeing them explore the world, experience firsts, learn new things and rise to the occasion is the biggest honor.
Mario, this year you’ll enter Kindergarten and join your big brother. It is an incredible moment and a crazy example of how fast this life moves. It feels like yesterday when your brother was the one starting.
All I want for Father’s Day is to have quality time with my boys. You have made me so happy and I am looking forward to the days, months and years to come to see you guys thrive.
Thank you for making me a dad, Colin and Mario. I hope you’re proud of me because I’m so proud of you.